I’m Only Human
By Sabrina McDonald
It was one of those weeks.
I couldn’t keep up with everything expected of me. I felt like I was failing my husband and all the other people depending on me.
And the pressure was frustrating. I gave Robbie “the look” several times—the one that says, (in the words of David Banner, the original Hulk), “Don’t make me angry. You won’t like me when I’m angry.”
And did he heed the warning? Of course not.
I blew up—yelling, sulking, and slamming cabinet doors. I tried to blame everyone else. But I knew the truth—the responsibility to control my feelings fell on me.
In a rare quiet moment, I stood in my bedroom, tears running down my cheeks. I cried, “God, forgive me. Please forgive me. I’m only human.”
That confession took a load off my shoulders.
I felt lifted for two reasons: First, I was forgiven. And second, my own confession reminded me the only person who expected perfection from me, was me. (Not God. And not my husband.)
I wasn’t telling God anything new by confessing my humanity. He already knew. But it did remind me I’m not perfect in marriage or otherwise, and that’s OK. No matter what I’ve done, it’s not too big for God.
In that moment, I felt like Jesus put His arm around me and stood by my side. I felt like He was saying, “I was 100% human, too. I know it can be hard.”
I’m only human. You’re only human. We’re going to fail—even in our marriages—that’s what grace is for.
The good stuff: For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. (2 Corinthians 5:21)
Action points: Think of the ways you have expectations of yourself and others that are unreasonable. How can you show more grace? Your spouse isn’t perfect either. Are you holding grudges that need to be forgiven?
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